I Lost My Baby

Assalamualaikum everyone.

So, as the title says, I've lost my baby during my third month of pregnancy. It was a hectic week at work. I had important report to be done and that was when I lost it. I'm not sure whether it was because of stress or whether my baby just not growing much as the doctor said. No reason. I just lost it out of sudden. It was on Friday where I had to work until 10pm to finish my report. Then, on Sunday night I had spotting and minor cramp. I thought it was just a normal stomach ache. So, I tried to sleep. At about 1pm I started to bleed heavily and cramping. I think it was the so called contraction when you are having childbirth. The pain came in the interval of 15 minutes at first then it became more frequent until every minute interval which made me cannot sleep for the entire night. It was so painful that I begged my husband for pain killer however there was none at home and the clinic or pharmacy are close at that hour. So, I just had to bear the pain until morning. I cried the whole night because it was too painful. Then, the next morning, I went to the clinic to check and the doctor confirmed that my baby is gone. The doctor advised me to wait until the fetus naturally come out. If it didn't then only he will do the D&C. So that night my baby came out and we buried it in the field in front of our house. I'm not okay but I'll accept everything that God has planned for me. I hope there will be better things for me next time... 😢