Strong Girl

Hi. Assalamualaikum.

I ni jenis yang susah menangis. Selagi boleh bertahan memang sumpah takkan nangis. Sometimes terfikir, tak normal ke I ni kenapa tak nangis. Setahun boleh kira berapa kali je nangis. Sekarang ni I tengah ada problem yang taknak lah cerita kat blog for now. Nanti dah sedia I cerita okay. Masalah yang sangat menekan maka I sangat tertekan tapi still tak ada setitik air mata pun keluar lagi. Ada je rasa nak nangis tapi selalu cam otak ke hati I ke apa potong cakap jangan nangis, you're stronger than this, apa pointnya nangis, tak selesai masalah pun. So I ended up tak nangis.

It's not like I nak cakap yang orang kuat menangis ni lemah. NO OKAY! I tak rasa macam tu langsung. Tapi untuk diri I sendiri memang I strict gila. Tak boleh nangis, kau kuat kau boleh hadap semua ni. That's just me. Degil and ada satu pendirian yang tak suka orang lain nampak I lemah, I sedih, I sakit. Kadang-kadang bila I sakit pun I selalu tak nampak macam sakit because I push myself to not look sick. So, orang keliling selalu ingat I sihat je waktu I sakit. Memang jenis yang tak suka orang simpati or menyusahkan orang. So I prefer pendam and hadap sendiri. My husband pun selalunya tak tahu apa I rasa sebab I suka macam ni.

Should I change? No right? Setiap orang ada character masing-masing. So let me be me.

Kesimpulannya, I will not cry until it is too much to bear. Please doakan semuanya baik-baik je untuk I. My heart hurts so bad I don't know how long I can tahan. So please pray for me.


Love,
Nurul

My New Blogger Template

Hi. Assalamualaikum.

So today I changed my blog template. I bought my blog template from Etsy. And I think it's cute so I love it. I bought it for $4.99. It was actually priced at $30 and I'm lucky I found the template and it was on sale! Huge mark down guys how can I not buy it?! Hence, I think I'll use this template for a long time because I bought it. All this while I just used free blogger template so I feel nothing. But for this new template I'm excited! I hope I'll love it for long because knowing myself I'm the type who gets easily bored with things. Haha let's see...

So what do you guys think? Yay or Nay? 😍

Occasional Rant 1

Hi.

I just want to pour my heart out here so you actually can skip this post. I just don't get my colleague. She has a lot of pending works, she rants about it and yet she said we should do some other things that are not in our job scope because she thinks it's better to standardize everything. Whattt?! Please settle your piles of pending works before you talk about things that is beyond your authority. Just shut it! So I can't help but to go against her statement, so I said "For me, I think it's better if we do what we have to do. There's a reason why we have different department in a company. If we do everything including theirs then what is their function then?". And then, I kept quite. Malas already nak layan. I seriously don't get the way she thinks. Why do you want to question everything when your piles of works are still pending. So much time to spend on unnecessary things is it? 😒
Okay that's all. Bye.

Love,
Nurul

I am a Pregnant Lady



Hi. Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdullillah, as mentioned in the title, yes I am pregnant. Finally... If you have read my previous post, I just randomly test my pregnancy without any hope because we didn't really tried the past month due to we are still under examination with our Gynae to confirm whether we are infertile or not. We are still yet to know the results for all the tests we did before. And suddenly, we got pregnant! So I guess the quotes "Sometimes what you're looking for comes when you're not looking at all" and "The best things happen unexpectedly" are true. This news is very unexpected and we are so happy and we pray that everything will go smoothly for us on this pregnancy. InsyaAllah.


So, as I've shared with you in my previous post, I've peed on the stick and suddenly it came out as two lines (means positively pregnant). Then, the next morning I peed on the new stick again and it still came out as two lines, yay! But we are still not convinced (you know pregnancy test could be wrong..), so I peed on the third stick the next morning, and we chose to use the Clearblue Digital to confirm our pregnancy, and yes I am pregnant! Alhamdulillah. We test thrice already so we are positive that we are 4 weeks pregnant according to my last first day of menstruation. We'll go to see the doctor at 8 weeks pregnancy so that we can get a clear confirmation. And for now, we will try to protect our baby the best we can. Please pray for us. Thank you.


Love,
Nurul